Thank you for forgiving me

As an adult who has lived the last 30 years making mistakes, I have learned that it is ok to forgive myself.  But now I have 3 little tiny humans who I also need to forgive my mistakes on a regular basis.

I want to thank you for doing it... every time.

I am not a bad mom.  I am not a horrible person, but I still do stupid things that hurt peoples feelings.  People like you three.   When I have a bad day, and I tell you to go play all day long.  When I say we will go visit Nanny, and I say screw it, I don't want to go.  When I promise the new game, and then realize it isn't in the budget.  You always forgive me.

I hate disappointing you, and I promise that I do not do it on purpose.  Over the last few years I have learned to make sure that I can do what I say, and give what I promise.  But some days, that just doesn't happen.

Yesterday I had a bad day.  It wasn't your fault that I had a bad day, but I did.  And it affected all of you.  I wanted the day to be done, and I really wasn't in the mood to be a mom yesterday.  I wanted to be a lazy woman who didn't get out of bed.  I went to bed that night (finally) and thought how horrible I was.  I didn't give one ounce of the motherly love that I felt I needed to give.  I didn't give words of encouragement.  I didn't  play, or have fun.  I just sat and waited for the day to be done.  But when I woke up this morning, you all smiled at me, and said good morning, and I knew I had another chance.  I got to have another day to be great, and you only cared about how great I can be today.  Not how less great I was yesterday.

So thank you my loves.  With all my heart, and hopefully yesterday was just one of those days that I can learn from for the future.  xoxo