DIRT!!!

So, I was so looking forward to ditching the whole 20 minutes to get you boys out the door routine(winter clothes ugh).  Then I remembered today that I had to replace it with the 30 minute bath after you come in instead.

How in the heck do you guys get SO DIRTY?????  Every time you step out the door, you are instant grime balls.  And then you track it in the house, and the bath gets more use than any other time of the year.  Dirt dirt dirt.

The only advantage to the situation is that there is no way you guys can go to bed at night without being squeaky clean.  I love tucking my clean, cuddly (baby powdered hehe)boys into bed at night.

I want to go upstairs and pinch all of your cheeks just thinking about it, but I have to go scrub your dirty grass stained clothes, and the floor that's covered in mud instead.    xo

Thank you for forgiving me

As an adult who has lived the last 30 years making mistakes, I have learned that it is ok to forgive myself.  But now I have 3 little tiny humans who I also need to forgive my mistakes on a regular basis.

I want to thank you for doing it... every time.

I am not a bad mom.  I am not a horrible person, but I still do stupid things that hurt peoples feelings.  People like you three.   When I have a bad day, and I tell you to go play all day long.  When I say we will go visit Nanny, and I say screw it, I don't want to go.  When I promise the new game, and then realize it isn't in the budget.  You always forgive me.

I hate disappointing you, and I promise that I do not do it on purpose.  Over the last few years I have learned to make sure that I can do what I say, and give what I promise.  But some days, that just doesn't happen.

Yesterday I had a bad day.  It wasn't your fault that I had a bad day, but I did.  And it affected all of you.  I wanted the day to be done, and I really wasn't in the mood to be a mom yesterday.  I wanted to be a lazy woman who didn't get out of bed.  I went to bed that night (finally) and thought how horrible I was.  I didn't give one ounce of the motherly love that I felt I needed to give.  I didn't give words of encouragement.  I didn't  play, or have fun.  I just sat and waited for the day to be done.  But when I woke up this morning, you all smiled at me, and said good morning, and I knew I had another chance.  I got to have another day to be great, and you only cared about how great I can be today.  Not how less great I was yesterday.

So thank you my loves.  With all my heart, and hopefully yesterday was just one of those days that I can learn from for the future.  xoxo  

sometimes you grow so quickly, other times, I wish I could make time go faster

Maverick, seriously.  Learn to walk!  You are 15 months old, and over 30lbs.  I can't carry you around all the time any more! I would also like you to learn a few more words, but that's just personal preference.  I am 99% sure you said Amelia today though.  I was so excited, and proud of you for that!

Sometimes Wyatt, I wish you could understand me better.  I know that some day you will, but I just fear that our clashing personalities will permanently damage our relationship.  I try to understand you as well, but again.  We are so alike.

Oh, Levi.  I don't even want to write this.  You do everything at your own pace, so why  bother trying to push you for anything?  I grieve for you going to school as much as I rejoice it. I know you will do so great, but at the same time, it will force you to age without your control.

Tomorrow I will wish you were still babies I imagine, but today I am looking at your futures, and excited for all you get to live and experience.